Anyways, I think I've realized the reason that I have hundreds of pages of my writing in my closet at home. I write incessantly when I get bored and when I have lots of things on my mind and when I'm stressed. So three for three right now. Woot. I'm trying to get used to the fact that I can't blab my mouth off to everyone anymore. I did it to Andrew at good old GAC, but I'm trying to be able to be a little bit more secretive and a little less impatient. So far all that's gotten me is a few long blog posts and much less sleep. I think it will work out, though. I just have to get used to it. However, I'm quite dreading the getting used to being patient thing. I'm such a stubborn person... Sometimes that's a good thing and other times it gets me into a lot of trouble. I need to learn when to be stubborn and when to let go. It's hard work, all this learning, on top of all the things I absolutely have to learn in order to keep my life the way it is, meaning, staying at Concordia.
All in all, I feel like today may be a semi-successful day. Calc will be fine, speech will be fine. I emailed my music professor earlier tonight, since I'm really concerned about how well I'm going to do on this music quiz. I was sick last week, so I wasn't able to go to class and then I missed the first two days of class because I couldn't get a spot until that Friday. I'm hoping she'll give me the weekend for an extension. Otherwise, I'm basically screwed, since I have to be able to name the title, the composer, the genre, and a billion other tiny facts about these compositions through simply hearing it. I know I am nowhere near ready for that, even though I've been studying really hard. So psh. That's all I'm going to say about that.
Back to what I said about letting go. How do you know when it's time to let go? Or to move on? With some of my friendships from high school, I thought they were definitely over after huge fights and whatnot. There is one friend in particular that I didn't speak to for almost a year. I went to college and I missed having her as a friend. I finally gave in and texted her one day, blah blah blah, and now we're really good friends again. So how do you know when it's okay to let go? Because if you let someone go, how do you know that if they decide to give you another chance, you're going to let yourself have another one with them?
My mind is flooded with philosophical thoughts right now. I need to sleep so badly. Why can I never seem to get to sleep!? So frustrating.
In other news, the anniversary of Roe v. Wade is today. I am all for women's rights, but I'm also a supporter the children. I believe that abortion should be illegal. I'm not saying that I believe this to be a black and white issue - I know it's not. But I believe that in most cases, it was the choice of the mother to participate and that both parties were aware that pregnancy could occur without proper protection. Please be an advocate for all the babies (and future toddlers, children, teenagers, adults, and old farts) who could be lost today and every other day that abortion remains legal.
I love my godsons. :)
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