10 Strangers... 1 Mole

Okay, I admit it.  I'm obsessed with really bad reality tv.  It helps me sleep at night because it's so mindless.  I just turn it on and fall asleep, haha!  It's a bad habit, in actuality, but it's probably better than not sleeping at all.  Anyways, a LOT has happened since I've last written.

I think it was on Tuesday that Megan, Michaela, and I went swimming and the fire drill went off while we were in the pool.  It was SO ridiculous, haha.  The lifeguards had us get out of the pool and then wouldn't let us get changed or anything, so we grabbed our towels, I put on my boots, and we just moved out of the swimming pool area out into the hallway.  Then we basically stood around for a long time as the fire alarm kept going off and we were finally allowed to change and leave, cause the firefighters couldn't find where the fire was, haha.  It was quite hilarious.

On Thursday, I found out something REALLY FING annoying.  The music class that I've been in for two months now isn't going to count at all.  The registrar is making me drop it because I haven't taken the prerequisite.  I am not happy that this happened, because not only am I out 4 credits, I have wasted my time doing homework for this class for two months already.  I should never have been allowed to register for this course in the first place.  Not cool, Concordia.  This is one more reason I hate you, haha.

To make up for my really annoying day before, on Friday, I got a tattoo!  It's freaking sweet.  It didn't hurt too bad while I was actually getting the tattoo and as its been healing, it's just been a bit irritating at times.  Andrew even called me a BAMF, hahah. My life might be complete.  The only thing I'm worried about is telling my parents...  Not really looking forward to that conversation.  Anyways, check out the pics, yo!

At the tattoo place (46 and 2)

After taking the bandage off

Whooo!  I decided to get the word "love" because I used to write it on my arm for the To Write Love On Her Arms campaign.  For those of you who don't know, the TWLOHA campaign is to show support for those who struggle with depression and self-destructive acts.  I would write it in permanent marker on my left arm to show my support for others and also to remind myself of how far I've come since the time when I was severely depressed.  I decided to get this tattoo on my back to remind myself of that time and I really like the placement of it!  I also designed it myself, which I think is super special. :)

On Saturday, Megan and I went to the mall again and I ordered a new battery for my computer.  Recently, my computer battery has been majorly failing, so it should be nice to have a new one in a few days.  It's been incredibly irritating, since it keeps randomly powering off without even warning me the battery is about to die. So hooray for the soon-to-be package!  Then we came back to good old Concordia (ha) and played my new movie Scene It! game that my mom sent me for Valentine's Day!  What a nice mother!  Hopefully that compassion flows over to the whole tattoo thing, haha.  I also got to chat with my good friend Duchess!

On Sunday, we basically just lounged around and did some homeworks.  Nothing too fun there.  Today has been quite uninteresting as well.  Right now, I'm in the library, but I feel like I have some newly-found free time since I don't have my music class anymore.  I've gotta finish my annotated bibliography for Religion class, but I'm not anticipating that this will take forever... Hopefully...  Haha.  Anyways, I'm back to chilling in the lib, working on my bib, yo.

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Today has been a long day.  I freaking saved my essay to my flash drive after I stayed up really late working on it last night.  I woke up early this morning to put some final touches on it and it saved funny and most of it was gibberish.  What the hell.  I was so pissed and that I just went back to bed.  Right now, I'm in speech class.  Things are not looking good.  What a horrible freaking day.

SEA OF BEES

Song I am currently irrevocably unconditionally in love with is "Willis" by Sea of Bees.  I wish I could find more of their stuff, cause this song is so wonderful.

Well this weekend was a fun one!  Karin, Megan, Caitlin, and I all just chilled and played Disney trivia (success!).  Karin and Caitlin were lame and went to bed, hah.  Then later on, Jessie came over and he, M, and I watched Rent and a few Harry Potters.  Bomb dig, yo.  On Saturday, M, K, and I decided to go to Fargo for the day.  We took the bus over to Tea Berry and the mall and it was SO much fun.  I wore sunglasses the whole time and kept creeping on people.  The pictures are hilarious, although maybe you had to be there, haha.  We walked to Target and M realized that the buses don't run back to Moorhead on a Saturday!  I called Caitlin and she picked us all up, thank goodness.  Otherwise, we would have had to hide behind the paper towels at Target for the night!  For dinner, we went to Qdoba, which is basically a super sucky version on Chipotle, haha.  Then back to campus!  Phewwwwww.  I've had a busy weekend, to say the least!  And today is the Superbowl, so I'm up semi-early to get some homework done before watching the game.  I'm super excited!  :D

In other news, life is confusing and I really hope the Dream Team does not need to be separated come next year.  I would weep in my soul.  I would explain what I meant by this, but I wouldn't want to spill the beans about anything that isn't my business to tell.  There are some major stressors creeping up on me, but I'm going to just avoid the subjects most likely at all times, hahah.

Some pics from yesterday:  :)

Well la de da.

I guess it's probably not a good idea to blog so very late, but I've got a lot of stuff on my mind.  I've been thinking a lot lately about what makes me who I am, what motivates me.  I find that the notion of finally finding something that I can rely on keeps me going, meaning, I haven't found that something yet.  It's tiring, having yourself as the only person you feel you can fully trust.  But even then, sometimes I betray myself by doing things that I know are going to be self-destructive.  So really, I can trust no one, not even myself.

I'm super confused this week.  I'm just trying to find a solid ground that I can stand on and it seems like every time I think something is going to be fine, it all falls apart.  Meh, I'm going to bed.  F this.

Exam? I'm gonna kill it.

Today has not been very interesting, however, there's something on my mind that's been bothering me a lot lately.  I completely hate how some people are passive aggressive.  Yes, conflict sucks, but can't it be a driving force toward something better?  I know I've been guilty of this as well.  But I have learned that it is much better to just say what's on your mind than to hint at things.

And for anyone who may be thinking that I'm trying to hint at someone, I'm really not.  I have just had this cause a lot of trouble recently and it's really annoying to me.  I'm tired of people not saying what they really mean.  And I mean exactly what I'm saying :)

Tea party in the tabernacle.  Then off to swim with Megs.  Caitlin loaned me a fry for this photo.  No, I'm not mad.  I was trying to be stoic and failed.

Reliability

Do you ever find yourself trying to rely on something that isn't there anymore?  I know I sure do.  I think my problem sometimes is that I love too much.  I didn't used to think this was possible, but I've recently discovered that I spend so much time being there for other people that I don't have time for myself.  And then when I'm not needed, I don't know what to do with myself.  I get bored and I simply worry about everyone else's problems.  The worst part about this is I feel it's a little selfish.  That's a weird concept, right?  Thinking that I'm selfish while I'm not even concerned about my own issues.  However, I think to some extent that I use those issues to put off dealing with my own.  That's the selfish part, I guess.

Anyways, now that I'm done analyzing myself for this morning, I'll give you an update on current life.  Basically I've been having allergic reactions to random ass things like tomatoes and broccoli, which are some of my favorite foods :(  I think I have oral allergy syndrome, which would account for all the weird allergy things I've had in the past or currently have.  It's not as bad as it sounds, haha.  I'm just supposed to avoid certain foods... which I do... usually...  I can't help that I'm allergic to the caramel in Carmello bars and that they are my favorite candy!!!!  I just make sure to have lots of water on hand.  I also had three night terrors yesterday.  That was incredibly enjoyable...  Not.  I'm getting awfully tired of these things.  And I'm also getting awfully tired because of these things.  It's also my first day of getting back on my medicines so I feel like crap, in addition to the crap I already feel about my weird food things that I can't eat now apparently.  Argh.  And that's all I'm gonna say about that.

Also, I think one of the things I miss most about being in a relationship is being woken up by someone else.  And what I mean by this is I sleep all the time and I miss having a guy to come wake me up so I'm not late for life.

Ending on a high note:
JESSIE FIXED MY TV FOR LOST!!!!!!!!!!!   AAHHHHH!   It was the premiere last night and thanks to him, I got to watch it in HD with no fuzziness or weird green and red colors!!  HOORAY!

Don't ask about this.

It's been too long!

Well, I haven't written in what seems like forever.  In actuality, it's only been a few days.  In that short amount of time, however, so much has happened that I feel like I need to talk about!

So Friday night, Megan and I hopped on the train to the cities!  What an adventure.  Due to the fact that it was freezing on the train, neither of us got more than two or so hours of sleep.  We finally made it to the cities around 7 in the morning.  After we went out and ate a delicious, not to mention incredibly large breakfast courtesy of Keys Cafe, we went back to my house and slept.  My, was that glorious.  Then Megan went home and my brother and I drove out to Wisconsin to see my aunt, uncle, and two godsons, Ryan and Blake.  I am SO happy  I got to see them.  They are growing up so quickly!  To some extent, it seems like it was just yesterday that I was holding either of them as newborns.  On the other hand, I can't really remember when Ryan couldn't talk or when Blake couldn't walk.  Anyways, once we got to WI and chilled for a bit, Uncle Dave and Aunt Jamie took us all out for some delicious Mongolian barbecue.  And I lost my Gustavus mittens.  Sad day.  Then Andrew and I drove home, both of us exhausted from the long day.  I was out by 10:30.  Shocking, right?!

Sunday arrives!  I had plans to hang out with Emma, but I wasn't feeling very well, so I just stayed at home to hang out with my brother for awhile.  I decided to revamp my iTunes, so I spent a lot of the day searching for new music and texting people for suggestions.  I have to say that I am very happy with the 2,000+ new songs that I found thanks to my friends (and this website I found: http://www.music-map.com/.  It's AWESOME).  Then me and my family went out to dinner.  Surprisingly, we went back to the same Mongolian place that we had eaten at on Saturday and they had my mittens!!  My mittens and I were so happy to be reunited :)

This morning (Monday), Megan and I got a ride back to Moorhead early early early in the morning.  We were back in time for my math exam at 10:30, which I think went alright, surprisingly!  I was a bit worried about being really tired, but I took the time to eat some Cheerios during the test, so I think that helped me out, haha.  Then schooling happened and choir!  Hurrah!  We're doing this REALLY sweet song that I'm super psyched out.  It has a really haunting sound.  It's going to be freaking sweet when we nail it, I can tell.  Now I'm just in the atrium studying it up and playing at the tea party that I decided we should have, hahaha.  Swimming in a bit!  Whoo!

P.S. It's argyle day!  Are you representing?  Cause you know what time it is?  BUSINESS TIME.