Will somebody show us the way?

I've decided to write tonight, even though I'm not really sure what I want to write about.  I've been avoiding the blog because a lot has happened in the last two weeks or so.  I'll begin with Cloud Cult weekend.

I liked Cloud Cult before I had heard them live.  I would have even have said they were in my top ten bands.  Now I appreciate their music on a level that I didn't even think was possible.  Megan and I saved a spot just a few rows from the stage and we jumped and spaz danced SO MUCH.  One of my favorite moments in the concert was when they sang "Love You All."  Everyone in the crowd put their arms around each other and swayed and sang along to the simple, yet riveting and passionate lyrics: "I love my mother.  I love my father.  When it's my time to go, I need you to know: I love you all."  Megan and I both teared up.  I don't think I'll ever have that type of concert experience again.  It was amazing.

AND of course, that weekend was so exciting as well.  I got to see Megan for the first time in two months!  Some highlights: blowing bubbles in front of the cafeteria/campus center, taking a billion photos, finding Winston Churchill (my fake bird friend), setting off the fire alarm while blowdrying my hair, and falling out of Ellie's loft, haha.  I needed to get away from my house and work and be a kid for a weekend.  It truly was wonderful.

Then I got back home and continued working away.  I've been hired now at Target Field as a concession worker and at Alex and Allie, a small business in the mall that sells children's clothing, as a sales associate.  My job count is up to three.  I'm hoping to keep it at that number.

I've really been struggling these last few days.  I am being hit with a lot of big realizations.  It's too much to write them all on here, but let's just say it's definitely a good thing that I am finally getting time to figure things out.  Andrew even said he was proud of me today and that rarely occurs.  It comforts me just knowing that I'm making him proud :)

One thing I've gotta be honest about.  I miss learning.  I miss people my age.  I miss late night Erbs and Gerbs.  But I'll be alright.  I've always been alright and I will be now.

The worst thing in life is to miss someone horribly and to wonder if they're missing you as much as you miss them.  But the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.  I guess maybe the love makes up for the missing.  Maybe.

And I'm ending the blog on this morose note, as I have nothing else to say.  I'm making some tea and cuddling up with my boy Harry Potter.  I really need a dog to love.