I'm having a bad night. Why? There are so many things that I want to say to people that I never will. I just hole them up inside. I can't stand it any more and I don't really care if I'm being passive aggressive. I don't give a shit. Here they are:
I love you with all of my heart. I don't know if I can stop. God knows I've tried. And I will never put away that picture of you and me like I did when I was at school. I thought it would help me not think about you anymore. It didn't work.
You are one of my greatest friends and I miss you so much. I try not to act sad about it, but it broke my heart to leave you. I hope you know it's as hard for me as it is for you.
I hate that you didn't say goodbye.
Because of you, I will never listen to Bob Marley in the same way.
It hurts me when you tell me you don't think you're beautiful. Because you are, my darling. You are so pure and kind and thoughtful and you're one of the most beautiful people I know. Please start seeing it.
I sleep with Rudolph because you gave him to me. I should have gotten to know you better before you died. I'm so sorry for that.
I was really scared when you first talked to me about getting married, but I know now that fear was unjustified. You're the most grown up of us all.
I love how nerdy you are.
Sometimes I feel so selfish. And lost. I guess I'll just keep going, because what else can I do?
In other news, I inhaled a supersize filet o' fish meal from McDonalds tonight. That's probably contributing to my "I feel like crap" night. But it tasted so good at the time...
I went on failbooking.com to cheer myself up. Here's a few gems. You can click on them to make them bigger.
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