We can empathize with manatees

Well, hello, world!  It's been much too long since I've written - almost a month!  I can't believe how quickly time goes by these days.  I wake up at random times, eat food when I get the chance, drink a LOT of fluids to stay healthy and to try to get at least some nutrients, and it seems like I am constantly working.  I'm happy to say that I've made a large dent in my tuition and I hope to pay all of that off in the next few months.  Unfortunately, my loans are now out of the six month deferment period and I have to start making payments on those now as well.  Those payments can be a lot smaller, though, which will help me start to save up for a car!!

These last few weeks have been crazy.  I worked at the State Fair and I wish it never had to end!  Working there was incredibly fun and even, dare I say it, a huge stress-reliever.  I basically sat in the sun and fooled around all day.  It was amazing.

Work at the grocery is becoming extremely discouraging.  It seems like every morning, I hear that I need to work faster and harder than I already am.  However, I feel as if I am performing my job to the best of my abilities!  Based on strength alone, management should have known that I am bound to be a little slower than some huge burly man or someone who has been working there for over 20 years.  It's only been about 2 months.  Give me some time to continue improving, people!  I'm making some good friends, there, though, and it's been nice to talk to people my own age more often, since so many of my friends are back in school and everyone is busy (including me)!

On that note, I've been feeling a bit lonely lately, but it's nothing I won't be able to get through.  It's just really hard working all the time and not having any time to see anyone.  It's incredibly frustrating.  I'm still trying to get a full-time job as a receptionist or something, but it's difficult to look for jobs when I'm working so much!!

Anyways, I'm about to leave for work.

I wish I could just wear this spandex thing instead of my dumb uniform and a sweater, cause, let's be honest.  I look pretty hot in it.  bahahahah.  Work time.  bai.

I Hope Tomorrow is Like TODAY

Today has been a pretty fabulous day.  I got home from work this morning at about 7 and I went to SLEEP!  I finally got more than 4 hours at a time!  Then I woke up, ate some mashed potatoes and went off to my work orientation for the State Fair.  The only t-shirts they had left were mens larges, so my ma is going to help me sew them so I'm not drowning in fabric, hah.  I met up with my ma and bro after orientation and went to Fortune House!  I had sesame chicken - delicious!  Now I'm at Starbucks just chilling before I meet up with Kayla P and go see Step Up 3D.  Yeah, we're cool like that.

This is quite the boring blog, but I do not really mind.

This coffee cup is bigger than my head.  LOVE IT.

Secretly wishing I was a spy maybe?

My, have I been busy lately!  With working both days and overnights and trying to fit in sleep and friends between, it's been a crazy few weeks.

And now...  I am starting to get sick.  BOO.  But, you know, I'm the boss's go-to man, so I'm gonna work it out.

Me, coffee, and my kleenex box are chilling.  I work at the Herb tonight, but I have the night off from Cub!  Thank goodness.

This was candid and I think it's hilarious.  I look like I'm in pain.  BAHAHAHAH.

ooooo.

Also candid.  I am quite tired, even though I woke up at 6:30 this morning.  That was so unnecessary.

Anyhow, I'm gonna make some mashed potatoes today, since those are a major comfort food for me.  Plus, they're not hard to make when I'm really tired, hah.

Random thing: I think I'm going to apply to go to culinary school.  I think I might love it.  But we'll see.

This is an adventure.

I have so much going on, but I'm too tired to write a real blog tonight.

I SAW WICKED.  AFTER SIX YEARS OF WAITING AND WISHING!!!!!!

Dress:

Zebra shoes.

Andrew wanted an angry photo.

HAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I wasn't supposed to take a photo of the set... but I did anyway.

I had to.

ooooo

I have nothing new to say, but I'm writing? Who the f cares.

I had a dream about having a family with someone and we had two kids and my son and my husband had matching blue onesies with rocketships all over them.

What do you do when you truly believe that you loved (love) someone and they're gone?

and you feel ignored.

I love my best friend for being there when I need him most, even if he thinks I'm taking the hard way with moving out.

And nothing is new.

One Day at a Time

I love Enrique!!!!

Here's what's been going in my life!  I started my job at Cub last week and I actually quite enjoy it.  I move in 5 days and my parents have been gone all weekend camping, which has been awesome.

Ashly, Liz, and I had a rock band party.  This is no way relates to us playing, but it was that night.

Chips and salsa.  HMMMMMMMMMMMM.

I have to use a box cutter for work.  This makes me apprehensive.

SUMMER.

I got really bored of waiting for Liz and Ashly to get to my house TODAY.

THEN THEY FINALLY ARRIVED!

The end.  I have to work at the herb and at Cub tonight.  Oh my.

BREATHE.

I only have 10 days before I move and, boy, am I busy!  I don't know when my next day off will be and I have so much to do!  I actually wrote "SLEEP!" on my to-do list, hah!

There are some things that are bothering me, but I am attempting to be chill.  Everyone that knows me also knows that I don't like to not be in control and that lending the leadership over to someone else is very hard for me.  However, putting my leadership aside in some aspects of my life may be a better decision for me at this point.  Not dwelling on things and becoming more patient are just a few of my goals.

I've also been thinking a lot about being broken lately.  A friend of mine and I talked about this quite awhile ago, but I don't think I was really listening that day, haha.  I was being selfish and I had other things on my mind.  Anyway, this friend is now going through something, and I have no idea what, but it reminded me of what he told me about being broken.  People have to be broken before they can be put back together again.  How true is that!  Our lives are giant puzzles - mysteries, really - and puzzles definitely can't put themselves back together.  There has to be someone who can look at the big picture and fix it piece by piece.  And isn't that what God promises for us?  That He'll be that person who can see our whole lives and He'll put us back together when we're broken.  How amazing!  I'm doing my best to just pray about everything and that He'll give me the strength to give all of my burdens to Him.  It's worthless trying to carry it all by myself - I know I can't do that, anyhow!

Another friend of mine is also going through something similar to what I went through last year.  I'm happy that I can be there for him, even if he just needs to vent about how he's feeling.  It makes me feel like it was all worth something.

It really does hurt to love, but it's all worth it.