BREATHE.

I only have 10 days before I move and, boy, am I busy!  I don't know when my next day off will be and I have so much to do!  I actually wrote "SLEEP!" on my to-do list, hah!

There are some things that are bothering me, but I am attempting to be chill.  Everyone that knows me also knows that I don't like to not be in control and that lending the leadership over to someone else is very hard for me.  However, putting my leadership aside in some aspects of my life may be a better decision for me at this point.  Not dwelling on things and becoming more patient are just a few of my goals.

I've also been thinking a lot about being broken lately.  A friend of mine and I talked about this quite awhile ago, but I don't think I was really listening that day, haha.  I was being selfish and I had other things on my mind.  Anyway, this friend is now going through something, and I have no idea what, but it reminded me of what he told me about being broken.  People have to be broken before they can be put back together again.  How true is that!  Our lives are giant puzzles - mysteries, really - and puzzles definitely can't put themselves back together.  There has to be someone who can look at the big picture and fix it piece by piece.  And isn't that what God promises for us?  That He'll be that person who can see our whole lives and He'll put us back together when we're broken.  How amazing!  I'm doing my best to just pray about everything and that He'll give me the strength to give all of my burdens to Him.  It's worthless trying to carry it all by myself - I know I can't do that, anyhow!

Another friend of mine is also going through something similar to what I went through last year.  I'm happy that I can be there for him, even if he just needs to vent about how he's feeling.  It makes me feel like it was all worth something.

It really does hurt to love, but it's all worth it.